That’s it. I’m bored. I want something new, a new adventure, experience. I feel like I live in the background, and I’m over it. I don’t know how this is going to happen, or even if it will, but I want it to.
I think it would suck to really truly get your heart broken, but I bet it sucks worse to be the one never noticed, always in the background. Listening to your friends stories about boys, love, lust and random nights, and never having anything to share back.. yeah.. I’d have to say losing the game is a lot worse than never playing at all.
I am loving my sorority. I was so unsure before rush if I would really fit in anywhere, but I am loving DZ. All the girls I have met I have a lot of fun with, and it’s definitely something I am ecstatic to be a part of. It’s still weird because sometimes I think about it and still can’t believe it’s something that I joined, but again, so happy I did.
Today as I was talking to one of my closest friends about wanting to be around people who want me to be there. That’s really all I want, to have people, or a person and know all the time, that my presence is something that they want and isn’t a burden. Usually I feel like people don’t mind me, but I’m not one of the first people that comes to mind when they just want to hang out. This is something I used to have, it fell to pieces, granted things are better now, and I have moved on, it would just be a nice feeling to have again. I have friends, some better than others, and I am lucky for everything I have and I know that,